Have No Shame

Have No Shame

Feed my endless narcissism,

so I can starve my demons.

You hear the stories, but you don't know what it's really like because you've experienced nothing. I can't say the same for myself because my wounds make me more whole than you'd imagine. The recent months have been strangely therapeutic, so many new places and faces have taught me about myself.

But I have my dark too, maybe I'll get better at camouflaging it the older I grow. Now, however, I'd like to think I'm invincible, even if it's for only a short while. No one gets to rain on my parade! 

I did a replay of all these memories collected from this year and I can't believe how unbelievable it has been overall. I've lost and I've found. It's all balanced, just like the universe. 

Let go,
so you can set me free.

No shame.
No inhibitions.

My youth is temporary,
Exploit it while you still can.

But I can't give you my heart unless you give me yours.

Vibrations

Everything ends when you go away, you're here now and will be gone before you know it. Maybe I'll find that connect with someone else, that energy, that vibration. For a species as competent in regeneration as us, I don't see why I will not be able to find another like you if I look for them with some honesty. Only now I know that it won't last forever, nothing is meant to last forever. That's just the way life works, the universe works.

We start out from a point, meet and then separate. If you place your life on a straight line, all these points that flow through you, make you whole. So many different memories, places, faces, emotions. They all come together, to help shape your soul. The signs are all out there. You need to introspect and be more receptive.

Why are we here?

Why am I here?

The male body perceives pleasure very differently from the female body. I've had lovers of both genders with whom I've shared many moments of ecstasy with. I can feel the energy they feel when they're in an extreme state of pleasure, where it almost borders on insanity. The idea of sharing that state of mind or help them get there is what brings me the most joy. So I try and mould myself into the best damn person I can be, for them to derive gratification from. 

On some days I have a good day and on some I let my demons take over and consume me whole.

But I'm trying, every day I'm trying.

Because in the end, I know, it will all be worth it.

Slowly unfold layer by layer,

See things for the way they are.

There is no right and wrong,

There are only choices.

Every step.

Every minute.

It all counts, I guess.

Call them out on their charades,

Don't participate.

Step back.

Go away.

Never come back.

Take your time, take all the time you need.

But make up your mind, 

Once and for all.