Terribly Flawed!

Though I've done a lot of awful things in life, deep down within, I STILL believe that I'm a good person.
So I spend hours in front of the mirror, paying very close attention to what I look like.
But you never seem to notice, am I THAT ugly?!

This Was Long Overdue.

I need to change the way I look, maybe sober down a little bit.
I need to change the way how I'm a rather liberal-thinker who is open to all new forms of experimentation and ideas.
I need to change how I perceive people and human relationships.
I need to change the way I look at myself in the mirror and dislike who I see.
I need to change my ambitions, which seem to be getting me nowhere.
I need to change my flawed existence.
I need to change the fact that I hate giving up hope.
I need to change how I believe in karma.
I need to change my way of treating religion indifferently.
I need to change most of the things about me.

I need to change.
But if I do, what will become of me? Will I ever be the same again?