I AM a drama queen...so?!

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It's as easy as that.

To break my heart.

Just love me then you leave.

While I sit and wipe the tears of my sleeve.

Go on and tell your brothers.

That I can blow like no other.

So let them come and poke me as well.

And if I turn them down, let them make my life hell.

It's as easy as that.

To break my heart.

And burn my soul from the core.

Look what you've done, you've turned me into a whore.

Some people are born to hurt others, humiliate them and cause them pain. But the bad part is the fact that some people are born to bear all this. The worst part is, however, that I belong to the latter category.

Single and NOT Ready To Mingle

Well yes, it's true..i broke up with my boyfriend sometime back and being single after nearly two and a half feels so weird..I now have the right to whatever I want to, whenever I want to, but the problem is that now that I have all the freedom in the world, I don't really know what I want.

Which brings me to my next point, men in Kolkata however know very well what they want-sex. Men here really ARE very sex-starved.

I decided to take a long walk today and thank god I carried my mp3 player with me. As I walked down the road all alone, I felt so vulnerable, a group of three men (or rather boys) literally molested me with their eyes and that too I wasn't even wearing anything provocative and neither was I looking gorgeous-just a reed thin girl in denims and a tee...why is it so bad here? Can't women take a walk down the road holding their heads up high? Thank god I had my music player on at full swing, I was unable to hear what they were saying to or rather about me, I don't think it would affect my already low self-confidence positively...

The more I interact, the more I seem to lose faith in boys, I don't really know if I can be with anyone for too long. Don't get me wrong, most of my best friends are male and I have had some really special moments with a few boys, but I don't think they can give me any more than that...And more importantly, I don't think I can give them anymore than that..

Let's face it, I am incapable of love- of the deep and unconditional type. What I have been experiencing all these years, off and on has been infatuation and not love and now, I don't even know if love is real and I don't even know if I have faith in it anymore...is finding love worth all the trouble and all the tears? I don't know and I think I'll stop looking for it...from this moment onwards...I'm better off without love....I'm a strong girl. I don't need it.