Ignorance is Bliss

I am a nobody.

I am shallow.

I am selfish.

I mean nothing to anybody.

Nobody means anything to me.

I have no future.

I wallow in self-pity.

I swim in a sea of self-disgust.

Your eyes strip me.

I lie naked.

I lie thoughtless.

I lie unforgiven.

I do not trust you.

I do not trust myself.

I feel numb.

I feel watched.

I feel ignored.

I feel crushed.

I feel nothing.

I die a thousand deaths everyday.

I live a new lie everyday.

I pretend like i'm happy.

I pretend like i care.

I pretend like everything is alright.

I am a bitch.

I am a whore.

I am contaminated.

Stay away from me.

Lay your hands off of me.

Set me free.

Feel me.

Know what it is like to be me.

Appreciate me.

Bow before me.

Idolise me.

Fuck me.

Suck me.

Rape my thoughts.

Love me.

Hate me.

Kill me.

Forget me.

Move on.

Bury the hatchet.

Tell me your dreams.

Share your secrets.

Live my life.

Be by my side.

Be my friend.

Be my foe.

Let go.

Dont hold on to me forever.

I am not your's.

I dont deserve to be.

I never was.

I never will be.

I love you.

Till the end of time.

You are the one who keeps all my hopes afloat.

Deranged

I am weak. I am the Lord. I am the creator. I am the destroyer. I am the good. I am the mediocre. I am the urban vermin that you see. I am the night. I am infinite hope.
Stay away from me. Dont touch me. You make me feel shallow. You leave me feeling weak. Yet after all that i have been through. It is you who I seek.
Speak to me. Communicate. Laugh. Cry. Die. Live a lie.
I exist. Have you noticed?

Anything Can Happen

Looks just like yet another ordinary day.
But everything shall be taken away.
From me.
I have failed to see.
That you are not who you used to be.

My world is made up of wilted flowers.
I lie awake in your arms for hours.
And watch those stars.
Watch those cars.
And wonder if life exists on mars.

I wonder if you'll miss me if i'm gone.
Or to you am i just a pawn.
So i'll take a chance and go far away.
And let you start a brand new day.
'Cause i need to know if you're straight or gay!