Life

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I wish life were that easy...i wish i could rewind, back to the good old days of free sex, ganja and music~life was so easy and comforting back then. Its not like I'm unhappy with the way things are right now, it's just that when you've done all that there is to do and you know almost all that there is to know, life seems like a big let down once that period an extreme high gets over...
There seems to be nothing that I look forward to when i wake up every morning, nothing!

But honestly, its not the circumstances, its not the world, the problem lies in me, I'm the one who refuses to accept that phases come and go in one's life and so you cant afford to be hung up on one after it passes.
I need to accept these changes that have slowly and painfully creeped into my life and that there is nothing i can do but to live with it...
I HAVE TO move on.

Moving on is probably the hardest thing to do once you've accepted the fact and accepted who you really are and where you really belong, but the problem with me is that i really cant!
You can ask me to quit smoking and i probably will, but asking me to let go of all those memories-both good and bad is like asking the sun to shine and the world to stop revolving!

After being stripped off of all my self-confidence and robbed of all opportunities and happiness, my memories are all that i have that keep me from breaking down and doing something drastic to myself, i surely cat let go them now, can I?
Or rather, I WILL NOT!


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I wish life were this simple. Really!
I wish I wouldn't think so much and just let things fall into place on their own for a change.
I wish.
Too bad wishes hardly ever come true...