Burn to the ground.
He says he'll kiss me and make it all go away.
But he does nothing, only watches silently.
My first kiss.
I have dreamt of this for a long time.
I am so infatuated with him.
I can't believe he's kissing me.
Why does he not stop there though?
He takes my t-shirt off.
I am in my training bra, he squeezes my non-existent breasts.
Calm yourself, there is nothing to worry about.
This is how adults express love.
He kisses me all over.
It feels good, I won't lie and say it doesn't.
But I'm so uncomfortable and my body is starting to shake.
I break free from his grip but he pulls me close to him again.
This time I am scared.
He takes all my clothes off.
"this will hurt a little"
Why is he putting his finger there.
It hurts.
"you're so tight"
"It's making me horny"
"Do you love me? Why don't you show me how much?"
I won't let him see me cry, I can do that once he leaves.
"Touch it, I'll be very happy if you do"
He takes his dick out of his pants.
I'm naked to the bone, he's still got all his clothes on.
"I know you want it"
Ah, the textbook line for rapists.
"I love you"
He lies.
I am instructed to put his genitalia in my mouth. I am confused and scared. This was not part of the plan.
I want to run away, there is no escape.
He's fingering my undeveloped 12 year old body.
It hurts.
It hurts so much.
I've never believed in god but I pray anyway, for this to end.
He makes me sit on top of him.
"Give me a hug"
He enters me.
In and out.
In and out.
In and out.
In and out.
My eyes are shut. Maybe this will all go away if I keep them closed for a long enough time.
But the humiliation is not over yet.
"Suck it"
He ejaculates in my mouth.
"You're such a good girl"
"Let's keep this a secret, okay?"
